Feeling stressed

Today I am feeling tired and a little bit stressed. All of these days off work make me just want to not work full stop.

Of course feeling this way makes me just want to run upstairs to the shop here at work and but a magazine and chocolate - just so I can spend some money.

My little brain is telling me that it will make me feel instantly calmer and better, then I can just get lost in the magazine and not think about the things that are stressing me.

Soulution - deal with the stress cause. The problem is that I can't deal with it until I get home tonight. So until then I have to put up with feeling stressed and try and do what I can.

Oh but I want to make the discomfort go away!

This is EXACTLY the same as going on a binge because I am feeling uncomfortable and stressed. I need to learn to deal with the feeling - not hide it away in spending or eating.

Would you like milk with your sugar?

Day 4

Another pregnant brain moment this morning. Whilst making coffee, when I went to pour the milk into the coffee - I poured it straight into the sugar bowl instead. It's quite funny to do something like that because you just look at yourself and think "Stupid!".

I am finding more and more similarities with restricting my spending to restricting my diet. I know that there has been a bit of talk on blogs lately aboutcravings for particular foods when you are on a diet. I tend to agree with Kek, I think it is more about brain power than your body telling you that you need something in particular. I couldn't get enough juice in the beginning weeks of my pregnancy - I think that I probably went through aroun 2 Lt of juice every 2 -3 days. I don't even really like juice THAT much! Apart from the juice I have had no other cravings to speak of for particular foods. Food cravings aside.

I do get an insane burning itch to spend money, if it is there. Whether it is in my bank account or in my wallet. If it is there I can get a little obsessed with allocating it to some purpose. It doesn't have to be on a particular item - it could be on food for instance. If I have 40 dollars in my bank account on the day before pay day I have a compulsion to spend it. I'm not sure where this habit came from. I used to have an absession with having "things" I had to have this or that particular thing to tell myself I was happy. I have moved away from that a little bit - although I do still tend to attach 'things' to having something be 'perfect' in my mind (case in point: Shelving unit from Ikea!). It is the craving to spend that I am trying to overcome and it is really helping being able to relate it back to when i was trying to lose weight and training for the marathon. It truly is about laying down those patterns of thought in your brain so that you untrain it from one way of thinking and retrain it to another. The money that I have saved just in the last few days from simply not buying food while I am at work is amazing.

Yesterday afternoon I even talked myself out of buying a cappacino at the doctor's (it's a bit fancy - there is a cafe) because I knew that if I didn't buy the cappacino then it would mean I wouldn't have spent any money today.

It is also helping me to get back into the 'conscious mind' thinking patterns that I will need to eat a bit better after the baby is born ( so I can shift the extra weight). I'mnot talking about going on a full on diet - because I want to breastfeed and that can be affected by restricting calories. I am simply talking about eating ALOT of really healthy, clean food that will nourish my body. Why not now? you may ask. Well that is a very good question. Mainly because I simply don't want to, it has a lot to do with me needing a very solid goal to work towards in order to be able to be really good with my eating and I can't do that (the goal bit) right now. BUT once I have had the baby, my body is mine again and I will have control over how much I weigh.

Anyhoo - this has gone on for long enough this morning!

Hope you all had a win on the cup!

I ended up doing some gardening today and then went for an inaugural dip in the pool. It was a bit chilly but once you were in it was fine.

I also slipped on a rock or something like that and fell over and sprained my ankle. I felt pretty stupid. I landed straight down on my backside so it wasn't an awkward fall or anything like that but now my ankle hurts as does my pride.

Breakfast: Home made pancakes with lemon juice and sugar, plunger coffee
Morning tea: Tea cake, cup of tea
Lunch: Tuna Salad (Tin tuna, lettuce, tomato, cucumber, cheese, mayo) (had to use up the lettuce)
Afternoon Tea: Sao biscuits with cottage cheese, tomato
Dinner: Tomato, feta and basil Quiche with salad
Snacks: Cottage cheese, frozen berries, yoghurt

Finished Today:Milk(we use UHT milk so always have some in the cupboard), Lettuce

Wasted Today: A whole pot of sugar! (See story above)
Spent today:Gardening things: $30.70

Groceries that were forgotten the other day: $12.20

Love this watch

I may have to save up for one @ $1500.00 RRP! Here is what the blurb says:

This is the Seiko Velatura. A LUXURY MARINE CHRONOGRAPH WITH 53 DIAMONDS. MOTHER OF PEARL DIAL. ANTI GLARE SAPPHIRE CRYSTAL. 10 BAR WATER RESISTANCE.

Day 3

Day 3

Breakfast: Museli and yoghurt
Morning tea: Apple, Orange, cup of tea
Lunch: Creamy Tuna pasta
Afternoon Tea:Fruity Tea cake, 2 kingston biscuits
Dinner: Chicken Kiev and vegetables
Snacks:

Finished Today:Nothing

Wasted Today: Nothing
Spent today: Obstetrician appointment: $10 (with $ Medicare rebate)

I had plenty of opportunities to spend money today. Not so much at work, because I find these types of things very similar to attempting to eat on a plan. I find the weekdays a breeze as long as I am organised, it is the weekends where I tend to let loose a little and forget my reasons for doing it in the first place. If anything I am glad that I am doing this because I have to reset the need versus want mentality in my brain. Instead of just buying something because I know that there is money in my bank account, it is very good for me to be more conscious about what I am spending. If only to remind myself that what ever it is - I can probably live without it. And that my friends is what the crux of this challenge comes down to.

Tomorrow just happens to be a public holiday in Canberra so it is like a weekend and I get urges to spend money BUT I don't intend to go out at all tomorrow so technically I should be OK.

Day 2

Day 2

Breakfast: Toast with Orange marmelade, Tea
Morning tea: Apple, Orange. Cup of White tea.
Lunch: Knock up Creamy Tuna pasta
Afternoon Tea: Milo, Fruity Tea Loaf Cake
Dinner: Chips from KFC - long story
Snacks: chomp bar, water ice block

Finished Today: Cream(replaced @shopping), Penne Pasta (have more)

Wasted Today:
Spent today: Groceries @ Supermarket: $191.28

Gatorade, Drugs and chocolate for mark who is sick: $16.00

KFC Dinner for me: $9.45 (Bad bad Andrea)

Butcher: $34.70

Bargain baby Nappies: $66.00

Domestic type of day today. Just at home pottering around. I made a cake (Fruity Tea cake) and some brownies for morning and afternoon teas throughout the week. That is - if they last that long. The cake didn't really turn out very well, I think that it make need a double batch and to be cooked in a different type of tin. I used a Loaf tin and I think that it would probably do brilliantly in one of those biggish square tins, however the recipie would definitely need to be doubled for that.

Creamy Tuna Pasta

Helping

Can't you see that I am working here...........

WAKE UP!!!!

Awoken this morning to the sounds of a hot air balloon injecting hot air into it's balloon space.

Ahh the serenity!

As you can see - today is a beautiful day in Canberra. Especially to be out in a hot air baloon.